23 things I’ve learned in 23 years!

Hey guys! Since it was my birthday recently, I wanted to make to make it a little more positive and share with you some of the most important things I’ve learned so far during my life. I hope you enjoy this post! Let me know in the comments one of the best life lessons you’ve ever learned that you think I need to know!!

 

1. You can never be over educated. Listen. Respect your elders. Explore other cultures- Ignorance can be cured but stupidity cannot.

2. Pay close attention to the people who don’t clap when you win. If they don’t celebrate your achievements and respond with jealousy or put you down, ditch them, they’re toxic.

3. Everyone’s path is different, life is not a race.

4. Never change who you are on the inside to please someone else.

5. It’s ok not to be ok.

6. Real Love is/should be easy, but maintaining relationships takes work on both sides.

7. Trust once broken is a thousand times more difficult to repair than to maintain

8. The people who are meant to be in your life will be. Don’t waste your energy chasing or trying to force fake friends to stay.

9. No matter how kind your intentions, some people will hate you for speaking the truth. Save your advice for people who deserve it.

10. Self-care is vital. Poor mental health can have detrimental effects physically as well as mentally, so it’s important to look after yourself in all aspects.

11. No amount of wealth or material gain can make you richer than someone with an abundance of wonderful memories. Don’t waste your life.

12. People grow and change. You should never apologise for evolving positively or leaving people behind who don’t appreciate your journey

13. Family is chosen through loyalty and love. Blood ties mean nothing.

14. Never trust people who don’t believe in magic at least to some degree!! (The worst kind of muggles)

15. The more you try to oppress your true self the more miserable your life will become. Fitting in is overrated sometimes!

16. Soulmates are definitely more than just lovers or romantic partners. Sometimes people come into your life for a reason, be it a chapter or a lifetime, and that’s ok. We learn lessons from them.

17. “We accept the love we think we deserve”. Until you learn your true value and stand up for what you’re worth it will be hard for people to treat you as such. You deserve to be treated the way you are in your wildest dreams.

18. Trust your gut instincts, but know how to distinguish them from anxiety. I truly believe that all beings are born with a sixth sense to some degree that is knocked out of them by society. If something feels wrong, it probably is- but don’t let your anxiety imitate this power.

19. A simple compliment can make someone’s whole day better. There’s so much power in that. If you can make someone happy, always do so. (The greatest NYE Resolution I ever made)

20. White, Black, Asian, fat, thin, ugly, pretty. We all look the same when we are skeletons in the ground. Always do your best not to judge people by their exterior.

21. Try new cultures. When travelling, immerse yourself into something new. Don’t just go to a foreign country to dine on burgers and chips, or to enter nightclubs that are exactly the same as the ones back home. There are so many interesting stories and things to learn about new people and places. Give it a chance.

22. No matter how much you want something, it won’t come to you unless you work for it.

23. There is always hope.

 


 

I really hope you guys enjoyed this post, or at least found something that resonates with you a little!

See you next time!

Love From Frankii x

100 Questions Tag!

ITS MY BIRTHDAY! I thought since today is basically international Francesca day, I’d do this tag to let you guys get to know me a little more- thanks to Ashleigh for tagging me!

Basics

1.What’s your name?

Francesca Denney

  1. Any nicknames or aliases?

Frankii

  1. Your gender?

Female

  1. Your star sign?

Capricorn

  1. How old are you? 

    22
  2. Your relationship status? 

    Married
  3. Any children?

None, I like the sound of silence for now thanks.

  1. Any pets?

I have a cat, but I often visit my Grandma to see her and the dog that she got when I was living with her.

9. Any tattoo’s or piercings?

I have 2 tattoos, my lobes pierced twice, A scaffold bar, a nose piercing and my belly button.

  1. What do you like about yourself?

I like my brain, my creativity, and my sense of altruism.

  1. What do you dislike about yourself?

I have this awful naivety in that I often forget that not everybody is kind or honest. I also dislike my anxiety and that it can sometimes make me irritable.

  1. Righty or lefty?

Right

Lasts

  1. The last thing you drank?

Water

  1. The last thing you ate?

Salmon and Broccoli

  1. Your last phone call?

My Grandma

  1. Your last text message?

“Much Excite” to Austin, re. food he was bringing home from base, lol!

  1. Your last email?

I sent a few links to IGN to Austin’s Papa last night because he couldn’t get past a level on Lara Croft! Lol!!

  1. The last song you listened to?

“Let it Snow! Let it Snow! Let it Snow!” – Frank Sinatra

  1. The last book you read?

A Game of Thrones by George R.R Martin.

  1. The last time you cried?

Last month after an argument

  1. The last blog you read?

Becca!

  1. The last person you spoke to?

My Husband

  1. The last place you visited?

My Grandma’s lastnight

  1. Your last holiday abroad?

France, two years ago! Way too long ago!!

 

Have you ever?

  1. Have you ever gotten back with an ex?

Ew no

  1. Have you ever been cheated on?

Yeah, more times than I care to count

  1. Have you ever cheated on someone?

No. Cheaters are trash.

  1. Have you ever lost anyone special to you?

Yes

  1. Have you ever been so drunk you threw up?

A handful of times at uni, yes.

  1. Have you ever fallen out of love with someone?

Yes.

  1. Have you ever met someone who changed you?

Yeah. I believe in soulmates, I think a lot of people come into your life to change it for good or bad, they’re still lessons.

  1. Have you ever been in a situation where you found out who your true friends were?

Several times, most recently marrying young showed me a lot of people only cared about me because I was single and there.

  1. Have you ever kissed someone you probably shouldn’t have?

Yes

  1. Have you ever found out people were talking about you behind your back?

When haven’t I? The small town mentality where I live is WILD.

  1. Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

No

  1. Have you ever kissed a stranger?

Yes

  1. Have you ever had your heart broken?

At the time I probably thought I had, but I hadn’t

  1. Have you ever had sex on the first date?

Yes

  1. Have you ever been arrested?

Nope

  1. Have you ever been attracted to someone who isn’t the gender you usually find attractive?

I can appreciate beauty in the whole gender spectrum, but I wouldn’t necessarily say I’ve been “attracted” to a woman, no.

  1. Have you ever done something you regret?

At the time, yes, but I try to look back on everything as a learning experience.

  1. Have you ever had a threesome?

Nope

  1. Have you ever embarrassed yourself in public?

All the time!

  1. Have you ever misjudged someone?

Not really, actually. I’m a very good judge of character, and the times I’ve told myself off for being too judgemental in advance I’ve always been proven right a few months down the line.

Your Beliefs and Opinions

  1. Do you believe in God?

Yes and no. I believe there’s something, but I think there’s too much suffering in the world for it to be an all-benevolent “God”.

  1. Do you believe in yourself?

Yes, I’m working through my anxiety and self doubt.

  1. Do you believe in Santa Claus?

Of course!! Only big Scrooges don’t! 😉

  1. Do you believe in ghosts?

Yes

  1. Do you believe in aliens?

Yes, the universe is so vast there must be other intelligent life out there somewhere

  1. Do you believe in miracles?

Not really

  1. Do you believe in the power of positive thinking?

Yes and no

  1. Do you believe in love at first sight?

I do since I met my husband

  1. Can money make you happy?

I love that saying “I’d rather be crying in a Mercedes than on the bus”. I definitely think money can help, but nothing can ever come close to happiness caused by love and human kindness.

  1. Would you describe yourself as a feminist?

100%

  1. Are you pro-life or pro-choice?

Pro-choice. I don’t care what religion you are you should never enforce it on another human being when there is no scientific evidence to prove that “life” begins at contraception. Not only that, but I don’t think the term pro-life is correct, as it’s often more like pro-birth. It means that unwanted children are brought into the world and often find themselves being bounced around adoption centres/and or bad foster homes for their whole lives. My mum works in a care home for teenagers which is full of such children, many victims of abuse by their foster parents. Unless you are ready to adopt an unwanted child I don’t believe you can call yourself “pro-life”. Sorry.

  1. Do you have strong political beliefs?

I do indeed, I love politics.

  1. Do you have strong religious beliefs?

No.

  1. What do you think the most important thing you can give a child?

Unconditional love and a stable home-life.

Right Now

  1. Are you eating anything right now?

Nope, I’m waiting for Austin

  1. Are you drinking anything right now?

Water

  1. What are you listening to right now?

I’m watching KUWTK on Hayu

  1. What are you thinking about right now?

This blog post and the Charley’s Austin is bringing home!!

  1. What are you waiting for right now?

Again, the Charley’s Austin is bringing home!!

  1. What are you most excited about right now?

Definitely Christmas, I always get so excited to give people the gifts I got them!

  1. What’s your pet hate?

Closed mindedness, and people who have no manners or social awareness. It makes me cringe and I just don’t get how you can’t tell when you’re being rude making other people uncomfortable. (obviously special needs and mental health is an exception)

  1. What’s your favourite thing right now?

Reading blogs in the bath has become an odd little routine for me, I love having that “me” time.

  1. If you weren’t answering these questions, what would you be doing right now?

Probably in the bath with my some secret Santa gifts that arrived this morning!

Firsts

  1. Your first best friend?

A little girl called Melissa, I believe.

  1. Your first kiss?

Year 9, it was sloppy and gross and I avoided him for 2 weeks after until he dumped me. LOL.

  1. Your first celebrity crush?

Enrique Iglesias. (sorry mum.)

  1. Your first holiday?

Disneyland Florida? Possibly?

  1. Your first pet?

Matty, a Polish Lowland Sheepdog.

  1. Your first regret?

Probably one of the many morons I dated when I was younger…

  1. Your first job?

I worked for a while as a stable hand when I was about 13.

  1. Your first childhood memory?

Being pulled through the mud by Matty as a toddler because he was barking at something.

 

Which one?

  1. Love or money?

Love

  1. Twitter or Facebook?

Twitter

  1. Hook up or relationship?

Relationship

  1. Dogs or cats?

Dogs 100%

  1. Coffee or tea?

Coffee

  1. Beer or wine?

At a push, wine? Provided it wasn’t too dry. Or Mexican beer like Desperdos.

  1. Sweet or savoury?

Depends on my mood really.

  1. Introvert or extrovert?

Introvert 100%.

  1. Vampires or werewolves?

Vampires

  1. Seaside or countryside?

The seaside!

  1. Summer or winter?

Both for different reasons. I hate being too hot but Summer always seems more exciting with more going on. If I had to pick, winter, because its so beautiful and full of love, especially around Christmas time.

  1. Books or movies?

Movies, but only since I graduated, I haven’t really been able to focus on reading like I used to for awhile because I’ve grown so accustomed to being forced to read stuff I didn’t want to.

  1. Horror or comedy?

Comedy, I find Horror films boring and cringe for the most part.

 

A Few Questions to Finish

  1. Do you wish you could change your past?

I wish I’d done certain things a bit differently just to make my life easier, but everything happens for a reason.

  1. What’s your dream job?

CEO of a Makeup Brand. (Dream big or go home I guess?) But for now I’d love a little something in digital marketing.

  1. What’s your guilty pleasure?

Nutella from the Jar, using the bath to hide from my husband and his guitar when I miss silence… I have several!

  1. What are you afraid of?

Failure, not achieving anything in my lifetime, dying alone.

  1. What did you want to be when you grew up?

A vet

  1. If you had any super power, what would it be?

Invisibility.

  1. If you could change anything about your life, what would it be?

I often wonder if I’d done university differently, If I’d taken a more specific subject, or moved to the USA with Austin for a few years before he extended his tour in the UK… but I try not to dwell because I hope I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.

  1. Would you want immortality?

Only if it included my loved ones, so most probably not.

  1. If you could interview anyone alive or dead who would it be?

Madeleine McCann.

  1. Would you say you are happy?

Yes… mostly.

  1. What one piece of advice would you give yourself at age eighteen?

Boys are trash, focus on you and your education and stop binge eating.

  1. Where would you like to be in five years?

I’d like to be working from home, for myself, and possibly with our first child on the way.

Birthdays suck…

Every year I dread my Birthday. I always see people with big extravagant parties, gifts and surrounded by family and friends. As an introvert, and as someone who suffers with anxiety, my friendship circle has always been small. I struggle making new friends, because I’m always weary of new people who might judge me or misunderstand my self-care/hibernation periods. I spent far too much of my young adult life trying to please and impress people who never cared a smidge about me- so nowadays I’d rather have no friends than I would fake friends. I’ve made peace with that, and I love my small collection of remaining friends.

Previously, where I may have tried to organise a big meal or event with “friends”, in recent years for the most part I’ve given up. Sometimes I find life a little tough as I always feel a bit on the outside. Like I’m always a friend but never a “best-friend”.

As it happens, since January 3rd is such an awkward date, I’ve always found that people will produce a multitude of excuses and flake. “I have no money”, “I’m still hungover from NYE”, “I’m back at work that day”, “I’m with family”. While these are all valid excuses, I became exhausted by getting my hopes up every year that one year would be different and that someone would remember and give me an amazing surprise- or at the very least, make the day less depressing.

In essence, nothing about 23 is an exciting age, and at this stage I’m fairly certain I will be spending it alone with my cat. All I ever really hope for are memories. I just wish that my birthdays didn’t always seem to merge into one constant dreary January. This year I had my best friends over and a visitor for Austin over for New Year, so I suppose that today after dropping them off at the train station anything would feel slightly anticlimactic- but my husband and my mum this year both couldn’t take it off work. Of course, this isn’t their fault, but it does add substantially to the feeling of disappointment. I’m quite family oriented and I live for the moments that involve the whole family together spending some quality time just laughing.

Furthermore, now I’m past 21, I struggle to get excited about hitting age milestones. It makes me feel a little frightened at the speed my life is going, and generally just more aware of my own mortality. My birthday always serves as a reminder I’m probably almost a quarter of a way through my life, and that I’ve barely achieved anything in that time. Not only that, but it actually seems to serve as a cute little reminder of how lonely and isolated I’ve become. All in all, I will probably spend tomorrow in bed, napping, and playing the PS4… and I’m ok with that.

The intent of this post isn’t to sound whiny, selfish and entitled, but I really want to make a point of sharing both the good and the bad parts of mental health. This time of year is never a great one for me, but alas, there’s always next year. Wish me happy gaming!

Love,

Frankii.

Toxic Friendships Series | Cleaning Up Your ‘Squad’: Pt. IV


Regular readers, since in both my anxiety tips, and my graduate mental health posts, I touched on the importance of cutting ties with toxic individuals, I thought it only fair to share with you my own experiences, and some of the sorts of behaviours you should look out for and try to avoid when trying to lead a positive life. I created this series both as a form of therapy and a means of warning/advising others who may feel like they are in the same boat. I’m making this a series, as it was a little long to include several types of toxic friend in one post. I aim to post at 11am GMT each week until the series is done.

Ps. Please don’t be afraid to walk away if someone is damaging your energy. It does not make you a bad person to walk away from someone who is toxic. You deserve happiness! x


The One(s) I Hoped I’d Never Have To Write

For me, though I can be hard to get to know initially, my morals are such that after I’ve been with/through a certain amount of things with a person, I will generally love them almost as an extension of my family. This is something that never fully goes away. These are the most painful friendship breakups of all. The ones where you’ve grown together, but sometimes they start to grow in a direction you don’t like. The ones where the person in your memories doesn’t coincide with the person stood before you today. The ones whose energy has changed and become suffocating or poisonous to your own.

For me, and i’m sure for many of you out there, you may find yourselves holding on to the people in memories, even though they don’t exist anymore. You may try to turn a blind eye to the negative traits they’ve picked up, hoping and wishing for it to just be a phase. The fact is, that life changes us. Sometimes people grow apart, and sometimes they grow into people who- when you really make yourself face the music, you don’t recognise… or even like anymore. This whole series was inspired by a recent experience. If the person(s) concerned are reading this (which I doubt as the lack of support has been going on for much longer than I realised), know that I’m sorry.

This is to be my final post in the series, with a view to opening it up again later on if anyone has any ideas or requests on toxic friends I’ve missed. This one was particularly hard for me to write hence I saved it till last. I hope you all can build the courage to end friendships that are/become toxic no matter how long you have been friends, because ultimately holding on to people that don’t love and support you in a genuine, healthy way will only damage you, and impact your life negatively. It’s ok to let people go if their energy isn’t right for you.

 

Dear Ex-Friend,

Life changed us, stretched our relationship over distances that meant we grew apart. We saw each other less and less, and each time I would see you I would notice differences. Some subtle, the shifts in your energy… less so. Before long the person sat before me was someone I didn’t feel that I knew. The person I knew and loved was too crazy and fun-loving to even notice things that this new person would say out of jealousy or spite. We used to be like siblings, but we changed.

I grew drained as each time we met a new person would become the subject of your anger. I tried to love you through it, sometimes smiling through discomfort and worst of all joining in, really wanting to believe that these people deserved the words you were saying. Hoping that you’d only talk about people this way if they’d severely wronged you,  but before long I couldn’t miss the pangs of envy that tainted your conversations. The people you spoke of all had something that you wished you had, and though the picture of victimisation was one I wanted to believe, the green began to seep through the cracks.

Before long I couldn’t help but wonder what you’d be saying about me behind my back. As I distanced myself, I felt the hostility growing inside you. Instead of looking inwards to consider why someone wouldn’t want to be friends with you, you lashed out. Not to mention, as it turns out, I was right to wonder.

I cannot fathom what could have happened in a persons life, to turn someone I loved for their carefree attitude and mutual aversion to b*tching about others into someone who could be so nasty. I supported you through everything I could, and ignored new warning signs as long as I possibly could have. But even as I felt resigned to distance myself from the friendship, nothing could have prepared me for the betrayal I felt when I heard that I’d become the topic of dinner conversation.

When I started blogging, I knew I would be judged for it. That’s one of the reasons I made sure to really cut down my Facebook down to people that I know (or thought I knew) loved me. To be ridiculed for doing something innocent and productive with my spare time, to say things like “who cares what she has to say?” was bad enough. But to screenshot a selfie and to tear apart my actual physical appearance, my marriage, my existence… To be that spiteful towards someone you shared years of memories with- was unforgivable.

To you, dear “friend”, I honestly hope that some day you can fill the void or the chip on your shoulder and realise that the world isn’t out to get you. Treating the people who love you awfully isn’t going to wind up benefitting your life, it will only push people away till you wind up alone. I never thought I would have to say goodbye to you, and part of me hopes that in a few years time this will have all just been a phase. I truly hope you can recover the person you were, because I know that deep down this toxic person isn’t you. But until then, for my own sanity, I think I’ll have to put this one to rest.

I believe everything in life happens for a reason. I believe that soul-mates are not always romantic partners, or “the one”, or even necessarily friends made to last; but they may also be people you meet at a time in your life when you need each other for one reason or another. As they say, some friends come for a lifetime, and others just a season, but to me that’s no reason to say that you can’t cherish the memories you made together. Ultimately, you hold the pen to your novel. When I was younger, all I ever wanted was to fit in. When I met you, for what ever reason, I did. As we grew, our views on love, friendship and trust began to grow and change- and us with them. If you’re reading this, and you find I’ve left you behind, know that it was never easy for me. For me, when I love someone, I love them loyally and wholeheartedly. No matter what you’ve done, or how time has gnarled us, know that I wish you the best.

Love From,

Frankii x


**DISCLAIMER: This post is not directed at any one in particular, but there may be elements applicable to several people whom, for one reason or another, are no longer a part of my journey.**

The Harry Potter Tag

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As anyone even remotely close to me probably already knows, I am a HUGE Potter fan. I have a themed tattoo on my ass, and my husband and I even went to the Harry Potter Studios in London for our “mini-moon”. Shout out to the gorgeous Britt from over at Alternatively Speaking for nominating me for this tag!!

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As I understand it, while there are a number of Harry Potter tags floating around the internet, this one was created by a girly called Cassie at Zombie Goddess Beauty. (You can read her answers here)! She said:

“As it is Harry Potter’s 37th Birthday today. And this year marks the 20th anniversary of Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone book’s release!

So today I’ve collected 18 questions that are floating around the internet. There are other HP tags floating around but I wanted to collect a bunch of the questions together.”

The idea is that you answer this list of Harry Potter themed questions, and then tag some of your fellow Harry Potter lovers! Make sure you provide them with the list of questions you were given so that they too can answer them and pass on the tag!!!

 

 

MY ANSWERS:

What house are you in?

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I’m a true Gryffindor. No matter which test I take I’m always sorted into Gryffindor. The house of courage, bravery and determination, perhaps maybe that means I need to shut my mouth once in a while!

What is your patronus?

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I was so excited to do this test again. On an old email account I actually got a Tigress, but this time I got a wolf. I was super pleased with this, as I’ve always felt a strange spiritual connection with wolves (hence my header). I’m sad that J.K hasn’t decided to giv us an explanation of our patronuses yet, so I decided to check out Patronus Analysis like Britt did, and here is what it had to say:

“The wolf is a bit of a darker and mysterious soul, with the strength of a fighter. A person with this patronus has had a lot happen in their life, and do to that they wear a mask over their emotions. They do, however, have a very big heart that is full of both passion and fire. They have a lot of emotion within them that they are willing to give, but only once they completely trust you, and since they have been made cynical over the years this can be difficult. The most common house for a wolf patronus is Gryffindor, the most common signs are Taurus and Sagittarius”

Besides my star sign (For the record I am a Capricorn), this rang incredibly true with me. I love it!

What is your wand?

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According to Pottermore: Hornbeam wood, Unicorn hair core, 13 ¾” in length, Slightly Springy flexibility.

J.K- About the Wood:

“My own wand is made of hornbeam, and so it is with all due modesty that I state that hornbeam selects for its life mate the talented witch or wizard with a single, pure passion, which some might call obsession (though I prefer the term ‘vision’), which will almost always be realised. Hornbeam wands adapt more quickly than almost any other to their owner’s style of magic, and will become so personalised, so quickly, that other people will find them extremely difficult to use even for the most simple of spells. Hornbeam wands likewise absorb their owner’s code of honour, whatever that might be, and will refuse to perform acts – whether for good or ill – that do not tally with their master’s principles. A particularly fine-tuned and sentient wand.

About the Core:

“As a rule, dragon heartstrings produce wands with the most power, and which are capable of the most flamboyant spells. Dragon wands tend to learn more quickly than other types. While they can change allegiance if won from their original master, they always bond strongly with the current owner. The dragon wand tends to be easiest to turn to the Dark Arts, though it will not incline that way of its own accord. It is also the most prone of the three cores to accidents, being somewhat temperamental.”

About the length:

(lol). I guess because I’m taller than average my wand is longer than average.

About the flexibility:

According to Olivander: “Wand flexibility or rigidity denotes the degree of adaptability and willingness to change possessed by the wand-and-owner pair – although, again, this factor ought not to be considered separately from the wand wood, core and length, nor of the owner’s life experience and style of magic, all of which will combine to make the wand in question unique.”

guess, “slightly springy” would hint towards me being open minded- which I am!

What would your boggart be?

This is a tough one…  I really dislike snakes. I wouldn’t want to share a vicinity with one, but I wouldn’t say i’m deathly afraid either. After deliberating for a long while, I realised my biggest fear is probably rejection/dying alone. I think my boggart would probably take the form of Divorce papers.

What position would you play in Quidditch?

I used to love the idea of being a seeker, but I think I’m too competitive and would want to be in the thick of the action- so probably a chaser.

Would you be a pure blood, half blood or muggle born?

According to the theory circling the internet:

Muggles: People who haven’t seen the movies or read the books

Muggle-borns: People who have only seen the movies

Half-bloods: People who have only read the books

Pure Bloods: People who have read the books and seen the movies

Deatheaters: Pure Bloods that look down on Muggle-borns

This would probably make me a death eater! But since I’ve no relationship with my biological father, I like to think I’d be a half-blood.

What job would you want after to have after graduating Hogwarts?

Hmm… I’d love to start a skincare/beauty line one day irl. Perhaps I would experiment with some potions. Taking anti-aging cream to a whole new level! Lipgloss laced with love potion anyone?

Which of the deathly hallows would you choose?

A true introvert, of course I’d pick the invisibility cloak. Imagine the places you could sneak in with that bad boy?? Harry was so unimaginative with it! 😉

Favourite book?

The Goblet of Fire. It was so magical to me!

Least favourite book?

The Order of the Phoenix

Favourite film?

My favourite film is actually probably the first one, because it’s lighter and It’s the one I will throw on time and time again when I’m feeling down. But a close second for me is The Half-Blood Prince. I love Luna’s character and Slughorn’s party. I also think it ties the others together amazingly.

Least favourite film?

Oh god, actually *unpopular opinion* The Prisoner of Azkaban. Not because it’s bad, it’s cinematically gorgeous. I feel like it’s just quite dark and emotional- It’s one that I have to weirdly prepare myself for.

Favourite character?

There’s so many to choose from! Probably Hermione because she taught me that women could be intelligent, whilst also warriors who know how to save themselves. I looked up to her immensely as a child so I will always have a very special place for her in my heart.  But I also love McGonagall in all her sassy glory, Molly who reminds me very much of my own mother. However, I also secretly love Bellatrix. I’m a die hard Helena Bonham-Carter fan and I love her portrayal of Bellatrix.

Least favourite/most hated character?

Dolores. Freaking. Umbridge. Do you know what though, film Ginny sucked too. I hated how they sucked all the sass out of her and portrayed her as this lame simpering little virgin. In the books she was fierce, feisty and popular. I don’t know if it was the casting choice or the acting, but I feel like I have to stop myself rolling my eyes every time she’s on screen. Sorry not sorry. 

Favourite teacher at Hogwarts?

As I just mentioned, I adore McGonagall’s character. She’s fierce, sassy and also fiercely caring. It shows in her arguments with Umbridge and her kindness towards Trelawney when she’s facing job loss. Also, her fight with Snape is honestly one of the most moving scenes to me as you can really feel the pain she feels. She wants to defend the kids but also is mourning the loss of Dumbledore. Maggie Smith gave it perfect life too.

Least favourite teacher at Hogwarts?

Who doesn’t hate Umbridge? But to be honest I found Lockheart deplorably irritating too.

Do you have any unpopular opinions about the series?

Not unpopular, but why wasn’t Peeves in the films more!? But, yes. I have a few…

My first one, although I adore Alan Rickman and his portrayal (I once dreamt I met him and cried because it wasn’t real, and he was the first celebrity death I really shed a tear for) but I have issues with Snape as a character. I understand the power behind “Always”, but his love (or actually even creepy obsession) for Lily does not excuse the fact he bullied kids like Neville to the point that he became his actual boggart.

As I’ve already mentioned, I think film Ginny was a bad casting choice with bad writing.

The last one I can think of is that I loved Draco’s character. I thought they gave it a really good depth, it wasn’t black and white like a lot of the others, but he really was ‘grey’. I felt like he was very much a victim of circumstance, like an innocent child born into the KKK. For this I also 110% recommend going to watch The Cursed Child too. I. LOVED. IT.

If you could save one character from the finale battle who would you save?

Ugh, I know it was to prove a point or whatever, but Fred’s death really cut me up. If not, it would be Tonks so that Teddy would have a mother- however, I know that life would be very hard on her without Remus. They were soul mates and I’d hate to see her have to live without him.

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I really hope you’ve enjoyed reading my answers! For this tag I would like the lovely:

  1. Amy @ kissesfromamy
  2. Kate @ girlmasked
  3. Kerry @ stepintime
  4. Becca @ becxblogs
  5. Lisa @ lisabritton
  6. Sophie @ trafotoz
  7. Emily @ thatweirdgirllife
  8. Hannah @ hannahdarley
  9. Geek of All @ geekofall
  10. Sassy Wyatt @ thinkingoutloud

 

 


 

 

 

THE QUESTIONS ARE AS FOLLOWS:

  1. What house are you in?
  2. What is your patronus?
  3. What is your wand?
  4. What would your boggart be?
  5. What position would you play in Quidditch?
  6. Would you be a pure blood, half blood or muggle born?
  7. What job would you want after to have after graduating Hogwarts?
  8. Which of the deathly hallows would you choose?
  9. Favourite book?
  10. Least favourite book?
  11. Favourite film?
  12. Least favourite film?
  13. Favourite character?
  14. Least favourite/most hated character?
  15. Favourite teacher at Hogwarts?
  16. Least favorite teacher at Hogwarts?
  17. Do you have any unpopular opinions about the series?
  18. If you could save one character from the finale battle who would you save?

 


 

I really hope you enjoyed reading my answers! With my constant hair dye I like to think of myself as the Gryffindor version of Tonks! I can’t wait to read everyone else’s answers please remember to tag me in them so I can read them when you’re done!!
Francesca x

 

Toxic Friendships Series | Cleaning Up Your ‘Squad’: Pt. II


Regular readers, since in both my anxiety tips, and my graduate mental health posts, I touched on the importance of cutting ties with toxic individuals, I thought it only fair to share with you my own experiences, and some of the sorts of behaviours you should look out for and try to avoid when trying to lead a positive life. I created this series both as a form of therapy and a means of warning/advising others who may feel like they are in the same boat. I’m making this a series, as it was a little long to include several types of toxic friend in one post. I aim to post at 11am GMT each week until the series is done.

Ps. Please don’t be afraid to walk away if someone is damaging your energy. It does not make you a bad person to walk away from someone who is toxic. You deserve happiness! x


The Limpet

A “Limpet”, based on a crustacean that lives clinging tightly to rocks, this is my term for those insecure clingy friends. These are the friends who will bombard your phone/social media when they don’t hear from you for a while; send you on guilt trips every time you can’t hang out or need space; chastise you for having other friends, and require constant and consistent reassurance.

Dear Limpet, 

I’m sorry that life has been so unkind that you’ve ended up insecure. I’m sorry that you asked me if you were annoying so many times that it got annoying. I’m sorry that I couldn’t be happy for you when you entered new relationships, because I knew how your insecure attachment style made you think everyone who smiled at you was ‘the one’.

I loved you for your sweetness and your unyeilding loyalty, but soon I felt that you were becoming less and less yourself. First I felt you adopting my hobbies and interests, though never having experienced them before. Then I felt you adopting my mannerisms and opinions- never one to disagree or challenge what I had to say. I wanted to know you, and I thrive on intellectual discussions. I silently willed you to disagree with me even once, but it never came. I wanted to know you and grow with you, but I soon realised it is hard to be friends with a reflection.

The truth is, as a true introvert, we were never a friendship built to last. I need my own space, I crave it for energy. To me, my own company is like a cool breeze on a stifling summers day. To you, with a predisposed fear of abandonment saw this as a slight. Friend, though you were kind and constant, I could not sustain the amount of emotional energy your friendship required me to give. I found myself needing more and more time alone, time with friends who knew themselves well enough to trust that I would always return after a day or so to myself.

I hope that one day you find yourself and grow. I hope that you find opinions and interests that are authentic and your own. I hope that you stop trying to be everyone except yourself, because until then you will always feel insecure and unaccepted- since the person you are presenting isn’t the real you trapped inside anyway. I hope that one day you understand that I didn’t “abandon” you or “cut you off”. I hope that you can learn to put your insecurities aside in order to walk in my shoes and not feel betrayed by my absence. Perhaps one day when you know yourself we will meet again- and I won’t feel harassed or pressured every time I see your name pop up on my phone. x

 


Dear Ex-Friend,

I believe everything in life happens for a reason. I believe that soul-mates are not always romantic partners, or “the one”, or even necessarily friends made to last; but they may also be people you meet at a time in your life when you need each other for one reason or another. As they say, some friends come for a lifetime, and others just a season, but to me that’s no reason to say that you can’t cherish the memories you made together. When I was younger, all I ever wanted was to fit in. When I met you, for what ever reason, I did. As we grew, our views on love, friendship and trust began to grow and change- and us with them. If you’re reading this, and you find I’ve left you behind, know that it was never easy for me. For me, when I love someone, I love them loyally and wholeheartedly. No matter what you’ve done, or how time has gnarled us, know that I wish you the best.

Love From,

Frankii x

 


**DISCLAIMER: This post is not directed at any one in particular, but there may be elements applicable to several people whom, for one reason or another, are no longer a part of my journey.**

Liebster Award! || Nominated by Queen Sapphire

First up, a huge shout out to my gal Jess (@QueenSapphireUK) for nominating me! If you haven’t already I definitely recommend heading over to hear beautiful blog over at Queen Sapphire Lifestyle
The Liebster Award is an online exclusive award where bloggers nominate other blogs as a way of connecting and supporting the blogging community. It’s also a fantastic way to allow your readers to get to know you a little better!

Here are the questions I was asked along with my answers!

What is the one make up/skincare product you just can’t live without?

I think for this one I would have to say my Jeffree Star Skin Frost in shade “Peach Goddess”. In the past I had never really used highlight that much, and Peach Goddess is not only blinding, but beautiful and versatile. It’s a toss up between that one, and “King Tut”, which is a beautiful gold that I often use on my eyelids too!


If you could move anywhere and money wasn’t an issue, where would you move to and why?

As a British girl, I am always drawn to the California lifestyle that you see on the television. I am always drawn to the ocean, but I’m not sure if realistically California would suit me. Perhaps out in Malibu, far enough from the chaos of LA, or the South of France.

What is the best thing that has happened to you this year so far?

Probably the best thing to happen to me so far this year was receiving an unconditional offer to study an MA at the UEA. Also, starting this blog!

What is one thing about yourself that you wouldn’t change for the world?

This is a tough one! Probably my creativity. There’s times when I wish I could be a bit more practical and pragmatic, but I love being my creativity. With my imagination, I can be in a world instantly that doesn’t require Maths anyway!

How do you feel about the blogging community?

So far my experience has been great! I’ve only been doing this for about a month now, but I’ve bene lucky enough to be added into a group chat with some lovely girls. I know there are aspects of the blogging community, the beauty sphere especially that can be “bitchy” or full of drama, but so far i’ve stayed clear- & I’d like to keep it that way!

Do you have any beauty tips you think anyone reading this should know?

Hm… I think my main one would be EYEBROWS. Eyebrows shape and frame your entire face, they are important whether you want a natural look or full drag. Nothing draws attention to your eyes like a beautifully sculpted brow. Also, using baby oil to shave after reading an interview with Emma Watson has been life changing. 

You’re posting a beauty/fashion haul, what are the 5 brands we will definitely see in there?

Oh god, that’s tricky for a girl that wants everything from everywhere. Fashion is such a mixed bag for me as a plus girl, but the ones I can give you are probably ASOS, Bravissimo, Levis and (does Primark count as a brand!?).

As for make-up as I’m sure I’ve already mentioned I adore Jeffree Stars Velour Liquid Lips, I have a sizeable collection because I love the formula! Probably Armani, it’s my favourite treat yo’self boujee brand by far, and my past 3 perfumes have been from there. I also love me some Urban Decay shadows, and Lush bath bombs!!

What lead you to start your own blog and what has your experience been like so far?

I’ve gotten much more into beauty only in the past few years, actually. A few of my friends have suggested that I start a blog/YouTube on several occasions, because apparently I’m not bad with makeup. But, I was concerned that I wouldn’t fit in as I’m not typically “girly”, so put it off for a really long time. I only started about a month ago, on a whim, because I don’t know whether my husband will re-enlist into USAF or not (he’s American and I am British)- so I’m not sure where we will be living in 3 years time. I figured that in time, if I could even make the teensiest bit of money from being an influencer, that would be a viable career path that I could take with me wherever I go, and I could do from home without leaving any children we may have!

Do you like to cook? What is your favourite food of all time?

I love cooking, and I’m told I’m bloody good at it too! Hopefully I’ll get more organised and be able to post some recipes on here some day!! My favourite ever food is Chinese without a doubt. I love salt n pepper squid or chicken. It is to die for. 

Are you a money saver or a money thrower? Do you wait for the sales or something to be reduced or do you just buy things whenever?

It depends on the day, honestly. Being a student taught me how to save and to budget for sure, but sometimes when I feel sad or awful I definitely have my “Treat yo’self” days. (Yes that was a Parks and Rec reference, Donna is a queen ok?)

What would your dream home look like? What colours would we see, would there be themes throughout each room?

Ugh, I live for interior design. My dream home would probably be big, light and airy, with a lot of white and grey running through it to keep it feeling bright and peaceful. I love marble floors, big chandeliers and fresh cut flowers. I think I’d have a different colour accent for each room. But most of all, all i’ve ever wanted was to own a house with a swimming pool. I would probably never come inside again if that happened, though.

Thank you for reading! I hope you enjoyed reading my answers!
I would like to nominate…
(This is very hard for a girl who has only been blogging for a month!)
@shoesaremything from canuckersem.wordpress.com
@rebekkablogs from allthatb.co.uk
@findmyway37 from mong82191.wordpress.com
@verozaccagnini from styleandtellblog.wordpress.com
@staceeytaylor from staceeytaylor.wordpress.com
@yelloitselo from eloisescott.format.com
The questions I have for you are:

What is your morning routine? What is your reasoning for doing it the way you do?

What made you want to start a blog? How has it been so far? What has it done for you?
Name one or two books that impacted or changed your life in some way and why?

What kinds of music do you listen to, when, and why?

Are you an early bird or a night person? Why? 

What do you hope to achieve through your blog? 

You’ve been invited on an impromptu dinner/drinks date with your friends. What’s in your bag/pockets? 

What are your go to hair products/styling techniques? 

Describe your favourite pair of shoes. 

What is your go to outfit for everyday? What is your go to outfit to go out-out?

Describe your ideal home. What’s the decor like? 

What makes you happy when you are feeling sad? 





Please do remember to link me to your answers when you’re done!!

if you don’t have a blog or you weren’t nominated, maybe write your answers in the comments below!